Today I found my center amongst the spring snow. The warmth of me, my cup of tea, and enjoying a little time to myself to find and express my center.

There is always space in the day to connect. Even if it is just the moment when I go out in the morning to pour my coffee grounds in the garden, I can take a deep breath and notice where I am. On this windy afternoon I stepped out and felt the elements move through me, under me, over me, and I stepped back in feeling refreshed and at peace.

My dream state is seeing the world as symbols, abstractions, archetypal images… 

I started my dance with my daughter, as the joy I feel to know her is like being in a dream, 

Sometimes I feel physical waves of bliss undulate through me to be in the presence of such a pure and delightful being! Is this a dream? 

I connect most with the dream state in nature. Like a trance, I breathe in the place, the moment.

I can share this with my children too when I am so at peace.

It is easy to disconnect from the dream when caught up with daily tasks and frustrations with the children “making things difficult”, the business of daily life.

But stepping back, the pure dream of life is always there.

When I climb the mountain

When I feel the rain or wind on my face

When cold air or sharp stone grabs me and pulls me back

I feel alive

I feel I am dreaming

Animals, clouds, plants, stars pass through me.

I am nothing. I am everything, and I have memories from an animal mind.

I think I know something, I knew something, I forgot

Animal instincts sharpen then twirl away.

Stars overhead, molten core beneath

My consciousness a drifting between awake and asleep

Knowing, not knowing

Dreaming.

May 1, 2020

An early morning improvisation with a dear friend before starting work for the day.

Music: “Bad Guy” by Billie Eilish

Embracing me

Celebrating life

Expressing gratitude

It is good to be 40!